I know I shouldn't be jealous, of N, but sometimes I am. Part of it is our respective natures. She is VERY naive and innocent. I'm a bit jaded. So, I say things to her, and she ignores them. Simple things that are necessary are very difficult for her. For example, she has yet to independently pay rent on time. The fact that its due the first of the month is completely lost on her. I take care of rent, because I can't afford to get evicted. She also appears to the of the idea that the apartment will magically clean itself if she just leaves it long enough (this is actually true... eventually, the impending Apocalypse will inspire me to clean, it will just take a while). And then, there is the way she leaves lights on everywhere and the water running. Last weekend, she asked me how to change the blade on her razor. She has also asked me what gear she should use to ride her bike. I agreed to help her aclimate to American culture. But, I didn't sign up to be her host mom.
I don't think I'm actually as annoyed with her as I seem. I'm frustrated that I spend 60+ hours a week working, and she complains about how she spends too much time doing her work as TA. I leave at 8 am and come home at 8 pm. She spends the whole day in her room. When I suggested that she might have to be out of the apartment all day on Thursday because of my evil little desire to sexile her, she flipped shit. (This is, by the way, the room she still hasn't paid for). She asks me if she should take research for money, because apparently working as an RA will pay more per hour than a TA... and she only has teaching and classes, no research.
Part of it has to do with the fact that grad school is currently kicking my ass. Somewhere along the line, I ended up with what seems like more work than almost anyone else. Admittedly, some of this is me, but some of it is also where I am. I'm running experiments in my research lab, doing data analysis and picking up the literature I need in my "free time". Most of my yearmates are doing literature searches, still. When people are going, I help pick up the slack. And, I spend extra time helping my students.
I spent 5 hours tonight writing a 9 page document on significant figures. The upside is that I will not answer a question on significant figures for my students unless they have read the document. The hope is that it will save me time, and improve student's grades. Will it improve their grades 5 hours worth? Probably. I feel like the responsibility for teaching basic information has fallen on my shoulders without knowing what I'm dealing with.
I need to stop worrying about my students and my roommate. I need to do my homework for biochemistry, read my cell biology, shower and go to bed. Tomorrow, I'm picking up AD at 12:30! I will see him in less than 12 hours!
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